Goodbye, 2018

As 2018 comes to a close, I can’t help but feel nostalgic in all aspects of my life. I am particularly grateful that this year brought new life to this blog. I didn't realize it was missing from my life until I found it. What originally began as a school project for a class I took in early 2012, has transformed into something vital that completes me. It's a public journal of sorts. A special place where I can express and share my thoughts and feelings, say what it is that I want to say and when I want to say it. Before bidding farewell to the year, let's take a look back at Twisted Pineapple 2018, entry by entry.

Here. We. Go.

2018 Twisted Pineapple Takeaways

• While I’m still not 100% sure of who I am, “dancer” or not to you, I am valuable, worthy, and in control of my identity. (Dancer Identity Crisis: Am I Dancer/Does It Matter?).
• Talk away. I’m always open to listen to your opinion. But do expect a challenge if I disagree. I owe it to us both. (Keeping An Open Dialogue)
• Tonight may, in fact, be a good night, but it could also, quite possibly, be an absolutely awful night. Don’t count your chickens before they hatch. (Is Tonight Gonna Be A Goodnight?).
• Adversity doesn’t always bring about personal growth. Sometimes, life just kicks your ass… and that’s it. Period. (A Series of Questions)
• Be open to the unexpected. You can’t control everything, and life may have a pleasant surprise or two in store for you. (Happy Accidents).
• Be wary of where you are going. Not all movement is good movement. Stop running into walls - that’s just stupid. (Just Keep Running).
• I’m probably afraid of you. Or at least I was at one time. I’m coming to terms with this. (Stay Away, Don’t Touch Me. The Haunting of Hill House)
• Halloween is dark and twisted. That is why I love it. (This Is Halloween)
• Sometimes, I drink too much coffee or wine. Or I simply work too hard. I’m the definition of a work-in-progress. Very much looking forward to finding more of a balance in the new year. (The Problem With Bottomless).
• I’m learning to stop waiting for external approval and to start giving myself permission to do as I wish. (Waiting For Permission To Dance)
• There are many reasons I write. Many of which do not include the reader understanding. Sometimes, it’s all about me, and not at all about you. I’m cool with this. (Sometimes, I write).
• Where is my life going? Where do I want it to go? Who is in charge? Scary questions such as these remind me that I need to be more proactive. (Ellipsis)
• Sometimes, I just need to jump in. Scream YOLO. And see where life takes me. Back into a dance studio, I go. (Tonight I’m Going To Take A Dance Class).
• We have an impact. Think about it. (Turbulence)
• I enjoy talking. And talking. And talking. Without worrying too much about meaning. This piece may mean nothing to you, it's mostly an experiment, but it means everything to me. (Gibberish)
• I’m realizing I’m a lot to handle… and that I need you there by my side. And that’s okay. Thank you for being my friend. (Am I Too Much?)

Where will 2019 take me/ where will I take 2019?  I look forward to seeing how Twisted Pineapple and I will evolve in the new year. 

As always, thank you for reading. Goodbye for now, see you in the new year! 

2019. 

Here. We. Go.